Outward Bound

Just came back from Outward Bound Sabah. Totally beat. Seriously no joke tracking for 4 days. Really makes OB Singapore look like child's play. All the precarious paths are...scary. Drop and it could be the end of you. (No wonder they bought insurance) Dangers aside, it was a super muddy, slippery(especially after the rain) and tiring trek. The locals there are damn sick though. What we took 2 days to trek they can do in 3 hours or less.

Sabah also made me realise the fine line between having fun and being serious. It's really started to make me question the way I am right now and I seriously am starting to think that I can't find that balance. Soon I shall have to give up on one and it's really starting to stress me out again. I hope I can find that balance soon, if not I know which one I will pick and it's not gonna be pretty.

Taking off

Been awhile since I've posted anything. Tomorrow is the last day of tests for this term. Bio and math. Need to get A1 for bio and full marks for math. Don't know how that's gonna happen but I shall trust in the Lord's mercy to guide me and give me wisdom. Hopefully the result will be as desired.

Had Chinese common test today. It was quite...fail. Started like 10 minutes late but still managed to finish with time to spare. Plus I did like 3 pages per question which is like...much better than before, I could somehow crap out a lot today. Hope it'll be like this next time and the rest of the next times.

Going to fly off to Sabah on Saturday the 21st of August. I can't wait to let loose. After the stress of all the tests and whatnot it'll be quite a change in pace. I hope I can enjoy myself there and not die from exhaustion. Hope I don't get bitten by sand flies or mosquitoes either. Will be back on the 30th which is a Monday. And coincidentally it's teacher's day celebration on Tuesday followed by a holiday on Wednesday so I'm looking forward to that. The only thing i dread is having chem and physics test that week. What a bummer. Hopefully having no time to study won;'t affect me much.

Somehow, I also find myself caught between what I want and what I should do, what I dream of and what reality tells me. I really don't know what to do sometimes. Problems problems problems. Maybe I'll just die of them someday.

Hopefully I'll be able to get a MacBook this week or something. I just wanna touch it before I fly off. Really hope I make it for bio and math tomorrow. Turning in early tonight so I'll be alert for tomorrow's tests. Night all.