Outward Bound

Just came back from Outward Bound Sabah. Totally beat. Seriously no joke tracking for 4 days. Really makes OB Singapore look like child's play. All the precarious paths are...scary. Drop and it could be the end of you. (No wonder they bought insurance) Dangers aside, it was a super muddy, slippery(especially after the rain) and tiring trek. The locals there are damn sick though. What we took 2 days to trek they can do in 3 hours or less.

Sabah also made me realise the fine line between having fun and being serious. It's really started to make me question the way I am right now and I seriously am starting to think that I can't find that balance. Soon I shall have to give up on one and it's really starting to stress me out again. I hope I can find that balance soon, if not I know which one I will pick and it's not gonna be pretty.

Taking off

Been awhile since I've posted anything. Tomorrow is the last day of tests for this term. Bio and math. Need to get A1 for bio and full marks for math. Don't know how that's gonna happen but I shall trust in the Lord's mercy to guide me and give me wisdom. Hopefully the result will be as desired.

Had Chinese common test today. It was quite...fail. Started like 10 minutes late but still managed to finish with time to spare. Plus I did like 3 pages per question which is like...much better than before, I could somehow crap out a lot today. Hope it'll be like this next time and the rest of the next times.

Going to fly off to Sabah on Saturday the 21st of August. I can't wait to let loose. After the stress of all the tests and whatnot it'll be quite a change in pace. I hope I can enjoy myself there and not die from exhaustion. Hope I don't get bitten by sand flies or mosquitoes either. Will be back on the 30th which is a Monday. And coincidentally it's teacher's day celebration on Tuesday followed by a holiday on Wednesday so I'm looking forward to that. The only thing i dread is having chem and physics test that week. What a bummer. Hopefully having no time to study won;'t affect me much.

Somehow, I also find myself caught between what I want and what I should do, what I dream of and what reality tells me. I really don't know what to do sometimes. Problems problems problems. Maybe I'll just die of them someday.

Hopefully I'll be able to get a MacBook this week or something. I just wanna touch it before I fly off. Really hope I make it for bio and math tomorrow. Turning in early tonight so I'll be alert for tomorrow's tests. Night all.

AMPlify

One word to describe it? Awesome. Totally unbelievable awesome. Hard to believe that it was what it was. Initially I had my doubts about it, but after Saturday night, I've been convinced otherwise. It's really heartening to see so many people turn up to support this charity event. The performances were quite interesting as well and I'm sure everyone had lots of fun. I hope more people will support our cause and help out the heart patients at SHF. Thanks everyone who made this a success.

Also I was surprised at how smoothly things went during the actual event. The rehearsals weren't exactly all that smooth and I was kinda worried that we might not get the piano in and out on time. However we managed to pull it off surprisingly well and the whole process was quite smooth. It was so smooth that we even managed to get some slack time in between the items :D

Best time I ever had. Love you guys. XD

Accomplishment

A lot of things have happened in the past week, the most eventful one in long while. Competed in the recent WALA held at Dunman High. I must say it was quite fun and definitely more hyped up than th one I participated in when I was in Sec 1. Altogether Team Singapore managed to win 11 Golds which is a new record for the team. I was quite impressed with our walkers though, they were absolutely phenomenal. One of our walkers ACCIDENTALLY won a bronze O_O Not sure how that happened but it was pure magic. Both walkers were lagging by one lap next thing you know, one of them is third, unbelievable.

Another thing I realised is that the Australian girls all wore make up to compete. I was totally stunned. I mean, who on earth would wear make up to run under the hot sun...So uncomfortable. There was this one girl, after her run she had mascara running down her cheeks. Then funny thing that happened was that one of the coaches took out his camera and started taking pictures of her, damn epic. Another thing that I thought was weird was the fact that all the Australian throwers were all so skinny. The girls looked more like high jumpers than throwers -.-'''

Watching the relays were quite fun. Got into a bit of trouble with Joseph Tan :P But not as much as I had expected. Maybe my win helped to placate him a bit. Speaking of which, I won a Gold for long jump. Managed to defeat the Australians, which was quite a surprise. Somehow Singapore did quite well; 1st, 3rd and 4th. Not bad. We didn't get trashed. Oddly enough, all my jumps were further than the second placed jumps. Didn't do as well as my nationals though, can't really say I'm happy but I guess I'm thankful for a win.

The next week will be a tough one. I've fallen ill again and there are 3 tests next week. I really need to start studying for them, especially Physics and Chem which is on Tuesday. AMPlify rehearsal on Monday, hope I don't die. Somehow I always seem to be down with something at the most crucial period. I shall continue to ask and pray for God's favour and guidance in the coming weeks and I hope to be able to do better as the days go by, not to mention grow MUCH taller too. XD

Success

First time I finished all my homework before coming home. My geog teacher didn't come to class once again. I just hope we learn something before we actually fail. And today's IHC test was a sham. IT WAS A MOCK TEST. RAWR. I can't believe I spent 5 minutes freaking out over it. What a waste of time. And finally had Chia Kean back after such a long time. Hope he doesn't set the Week 3 test too hard. If not, I think I sure GG.

Trained today after bio practical. I was practically asleep during bio. I totally did not register what the teacher was saying. Just hope my bio this term is not a fail again-.- And I really wish the mosquitoes in my house would just disappear. It's really very annoying whenever I get bitten while trying to do work.

It's over.

Parents. Need I say more?

Acumen

Had Council Mid-Year review Camp yesterday and today. Quite fun, but also extremely tiring. Slept at like 2.30. Was totally zombified when I woke up this morning. Not to mention that it was super cold and that I was frozen the whole night. The games organized were OK I guess, not exactly new but still quite interesting for some. And the review sessions were quite useful I guess. Somehow we managed to finish ahead of schedule most of the time. And we had BBQ which was quite fun. I was like the resident cook or something which was quite good for a change. Had loads of fun doing the cooking :D AND I DID NOT DESTROY THE GRILL UNLIKE WHAT SHIN YUN THOUGHT. Anyways, at night we watched "Surrogates". I finally watched it. We ended at like 1 something and then I tried to sleep but to no avail...the air-conditioning was too cold-.- And some of the juniors ordered MacDelivery. When I woke up, I saw some of them drinking leftover drinks from last night. And Shawn fell asleep while sitting in his chair, damn epic. Watched "The Longest Yard" and when we tried to do the movie review it failed horribly so we ended up finishing at 1.26 instead of at 3.

Totally tiring business camps. And I'm expecting more sleepless nights to follow. I just hope that I can survive this. Gonna get out of here now, bloody mosquito is pestering me.

Ennui.

Talk about bored. I'm completely bored out of my life. Supposed to be studying today but somehow it's not working. Every time I try to focus I only get distracted and I almost always end up doing something contrary to the aims of today's studying session. I suppose I'll have to rush everything later in the afternoon. Hope I somehow find the stamina and self-control to endure.

Tomorrow I'm going for Council Mid-year Review camp. You could say I'm not looking forward to it. Well namely because most likely I'll just waste lots of time like last year-.- But looking on the bright side that's when the whole council gets together. I'll have to hunt down my OT members and quickly formulate a proposal for this year's TTL or I'm so gonna be screwed. Irresponsible council members are starting to get on my nerves, especially the Sec 3s. I sent an email requesting for my OT to follow up, but to date there has been no action. Not even my AOS replied me. I'm really looking forward to grilling them tomorrow.

Last night was...in a word, horrible. Lost control of my temper and I hurt someone really badly. It seems I'll have to add anger management to my list of things to accomplish. And there are still resolutions to set for Semester 2. Hopefully things take a turn for the better. Being angry really puts me off.

Gotta get my priorities in order and buck up. Can't afford to screw up like term 1 and term 2. Guess that means my blog might die as well. Whatever. Gonna go continue studying now.

Return?

Been a heck of a long time since I've posted something. Namely 'cause I'm lazy. Well quite a few things have happened. Whole new dimensions have been added to my life. Kinda troublesome if you ask me sometimes. But mostly worth it.

Recently went to 6I's class gathering on the 15th. It was quite fun, and definitely an experience not worth missing. Finally got to see my dear primary school classmates after such a long time, though I see Lemuel often enough-.-. Anyways it was quite funny, forgot what it was like to have Wei Yan around. Damn funny. And epic showdown between Jeremy and Shawn. Unexpectedly Shawn won. For a first timer he did quite well playing HALO 2 on slayer swords. Apologies to Shin Yun for destroying the photo frame. Lesson learnt; do not ever do handstands in an enclosed area, especially with glass articles in the immediate vicinity. Things are bound to break. We also played Truth or Dare before the BBQ. It was quite fail frankly speaking, half the people didn't answer their questions(me included :P), and Wen Song totally did not do his Dare. Also had a staredown contest, King of The Hill style. Round 7 was an epic standoff between me and Hilary that failed to cumulate in a win. Well all in all was quite fun. Although Jeremy and I did not manage to do the BBQ :( Really wanted to bang the chicken again although this time no potato. And Colin, Jeremy and I failed to carry out Operation W. Again-.-'''

And getting back in the saddle for Track was really tiring. After not training properly for so long it's quite hard to get my form back. Really miss Sec 1. That was probably when I was the strongest. Guess next year it'll be my time to shine. Hopefully I won't get KSed by a bunch of overeager juniors. Today training was the most fail one yet though-.- Somehow managed to injure my ankle, knee and back within less than 15 minutes. Totally ridiculous if you ask me. Well that's that. I'm not gonna give up. Gonna keep pushing onwards and reach the top XD. Gotta keep the 自强不息 spirit alive.

Back to the old summer house, this time to stay forever. No winter can break us and no storm may abide while the Lord rules over our lives. If we are fated, it is destiny. If we are not, it is by choice. Either way the flame will not die out without a fight. And with the wind and fuel to spare, who's to say that this flame won't turn into an inferno?